Fuck Face!

so i guess thats what makes me crazy

2005-01-27T04:37:24Z

I went looking through some old entries of mine. I was really pissed off. but every now and then i'd be like super happy. oh and i smoked like just way tooo much. I had my fun. Time to move on...

for old time sake
::fuck you::

In exactly 5 months from this date i will be 19

2005-01-11T05:28:39Z

Today absolutely sucked...it was the bitch of the week..monday.
i'll be getting my wisdom teeth out on thursday
inbetween then i'll be at school and doctors

:::reply to plast from the past:::

2004-10-15T19:11:03Z

i've never felt so fucking loved untill now. seriously now..i'm a better person for not hanging out with people who harmed me. i have direction, that i've never lost, now i have gained determination to excide my goals in life. so which past were you talking about?...hum??...i've changed my life every chance i got. some were bad choices so i've learned from them. i was never afraid of starting over. i don't surround myself with people who take every potential to hurt me. i've been and never will be again flaw. so the "past" me..hmm....fuck it! that's why it was in the past. you can't change the past. you can't live in the past. fucking pick up your sticks. i am happy. i am loved. and at the moment..the me "now" is experiencing happiness and love that untill now i thought was only in the movies. so..fuckhead..why don't you question yourself. i can obviously see i have effected your life more than i thought! well guess what..that was in the past now wasn't it! and sence you're no longer in my life you have the audacity to ask me if i'm happy "now"...as if you'r not in my life and it should fucking kill huh! yeah your curious guesture in question form has only opened my eyes to how fucking happy i really am
...i know i'm happier than you..
....what a "challenge"....
and your to fucking scared to let me know who you are...
...hey..its my journal, everything posted for me will intrgiue me...weather its my best friend reminding me of i'm having the time of my life/or/the person i despise for their enturnal hatetred towards me becuase they hold a grudge for something that has happened in the "past"..
maybe your the one who isn't "happy" because i'm not in your life "now" and i don't give a flying fuck of who i was/what i did/or esscence of what i was..
people change..
i change for the better..

the next time anyone wants to leave "challenges" or "questions i should ask myself" can fuck off
why don't you worry about your *god-damn self*
i don't need reminding of mine

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-09-30T10:45:00

2004-09-30T15:02:15Z

1. What time do you get up? depends on what i have to do for the day
2. If you could eat lunch with one person, who would it be? jennifer love hewitt..it could be funny..
3. Gold or silver? make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold..
4. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? 50 first dates i think?*straches head*
5. What is/are your favorite TV show(s)? FAMILY GUY! SIMPSONS! yeah i was a friends freak too..
6. What did you have for breakfast? a publix cookie
7. Who would you hate to be stuck in a room with? your mom
8. What is your middle name? Elziabeth, Danger's my first name!
9. Beach, City or Country? pishh! BEACH duhhh..
10. Favorite ice cream? Publix moose tracks yummm
11. Butter, plain or salted popcorn? movie theature butter popcorn from orvalredinbocker
12. What kind of car do you want to or do drive? pearl blue 2003 sebring named crissy
13. Favorite sandwich? damn no hands down, ham and cheese
14. What characteristic do you despise? ignorance
15. Favorite flower? sunflowers, dasies, red/black roses
16. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation,where would you go? ireland, austrailia, how many am i allowed?
17. What color is your bathroom? white with palm trees
18. Favorite brand of clothing? meh..don't prefer brands
19. Where would you retire to? the beach duh...
20. Favorite day of the week? Thursdays freakin rock my sox off..today is thursday
21. What did you do for last birthday? had a horrible haircut, went to tampa, where i didn't get drunk but my sis took me to my first club : ) it was hellaious fun
22. Where were you born? Ft. Pierce, Fl
23. Favorite sport to watch? girls gymnastics
24. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? no one..*emo tear*
25. Who do you expect to send it back first? no one..*the second tear rips down my skin*
26. What fabric detergent do you use? Downy and woolite
27. Coke or Pepsi? fuck that shit..i drink H2O
28. Are you a morning person or a night owl? whoooowhoo!
29. Do you have any pets? a stupid dawg that has more allergies than my family members put together

Lite Bulb!

2004-09-30T14:38:05Z

i just realized something...
there is someone out there who doesn't like me who talked shit about me doing drugs and sleeping around, then, i blieve so...went and told my boyfriend i was cheating on him..huh! there is soemthing in common here...both comments have ment to hurt me yet i feel nothing because i'm stronger than you! so ha! i will stand the test of time, however long i will have to stand- you will not knock me down! sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me! and don't go take that to heart and try to throw a stick or stone..i have plenty of people who will throw back!

damn..i almost forgot what LJ was for a sec!

2004-09-30T14:29:31Z

man things are flipped upsidedown..
its all different drama..

What's with these homies, dissing my girl?
Why do they gotta front?
What did we ever do to these guys
That made them so violent?
Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that

Don't you ever fear, I'm always near
I know that you need help
Your tongue is twisted, your eyes are slit
You need a guardian
Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

Bang, bang a knock on the door
Another big bang and you're down on the floor
Oh no! What do we do?
Don't look now but I lost my shoe
I can't run and I can't kick
What's a matter babe are you feeling sick?
what's a matter, what's a matter, what's a matter you?
What's a matter babe, are you feeling blue? oh-oh!
And that's for all time
And that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

so go on and talk yo shit! so flaw so flaw...

school sucks

2004-09-09T01:55:10Z

so turns out i can't switch teachers..too late..damn...well..i'm going to have to rough it out with the hardest math teacher at pcc! oh well..i got to make up a quiz in math today, one that i might not have been able to and then i would have like 3 f's on quizes but no! compassion! i finished it in the nick of time. i'm finally getting on the right track with homework and classes. when i stay home and don't ahve to work..everything works out. hopefully. i'm going into debt...which is the dark side of the rainbow. i've already barrowed money from one person which i absolutly hate to do. but then again, i have the money to pay her back! yay! she lent it to me on friday, cus i didn't get my check cus of the storm..i said hey, when i get my check i'll pay you back...and sure enough..i will. she was supose to come out to winter haven tonight but i dont' know what happened, i think i might call her. funny story...i brought up the bill she lent to me and at first she had no recalection of it! but i'm an honest person. i think she owed me money once apon a time..but i forgot what ever happened to that transaction, i think it was spent on beer. oh well she my girl. it wasn't more than like 10 bucks anyways. i can throw away 10's sometimes even 20's depending on the person, but this is really going to suck when i have to call in reinforcements to get my money back from one boy. i offered a payment plan even..just keep in touch to keep my hopes up. hmmm..i think i'm might have to call him tomorrow..i wonder what would happen if i follow through with my "bookie" plans..i'll just have to see how tomorrow goes. i've givin enough time, you broke your word more than once. time to deal.

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-09-06T17:51:00

2004-09-06T21:55:41Z

yeah so funny story..
i slept through my two alarms last wednesday so i missed school. granted i only go MWF. then friday was a huricane day. then monday was labor day. now i can't even go up there to talk to my teachers on tuesday cus they cancells school. go two weeks to school, one week off. that would be bad ass if the next hurricane made it one more day out of school for next week.
i want to learn! fuck the weather!

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-09-01T23:26:00

2004-09-02T03:27:45Z

there are alot of stupid people in this world...
and you are not an exception

proud to be drug free

2004-08-27T19:07:51Z

so today i checked my journal in a while..and see someone wrote
maybe my life would seem less complicated if i stoped doing drugs and sleeping around.
lets seee..what do i have to say about that>>
I stoped smoking weed about a month, so therefore i don't do any drugs besides alcohol, which i don't drink that much to begin with, hmmm lets assess this situation.
I stoped having sex with people in that same general time.
so whom ever wanted to write that is bull shit
and maybe your life would be a little more interesting if you stopped posting anonymous comments.

to recap...
i don't do drug
i don't sleep around
and people need to get a life
outside the fucking internet
$$ i wish people would stand by their word $$

one more word

2004-08-18T11:48:21Z

i watched a boy turn into a ghost before me
as his eyes smiled, he walked right through my walls

uh hummmm i'm about to say screw it

2004-08-05T17:57:10Z

when life gives you bullshit..
do i look like a door mat?
then why the hell do you think you can walk all over me..
well i'm about to speak up..
speak my mind..
so watch out..
i'm really at an edge

and its not just you

rinker rocks the house

2004-08-02T01:19:37Z

getting shit together..
gonna pick up my books tomorrow, hopefully
payed on friday..thank GOD
plan to head to tampa a night or two this weekend
surprise on tuesday
don't work that much
get a fat paycheck..thank GOD and aero

shitty weekend went by but it was a good thursday

glad thats over
*blueberry rocks the house

heres a thought

2004-07-26T20:08:32Z

if you like it so much why don't you move there!

its not you its me...it might be you though

2004-07-22T03:37:02Z

do you ever have that feeling when you smoke to much and you are just stuck. like truely lazy and can't get up. my life kinda feels like that. i want more from life, not just token every chance i get. i feel like a loser. i can't wait to start school. i will have to drive more but it will be to school and work. hey maybe i can become a person that won't have to worry about going out anymore cus i'll lose all my friends. wouldn't that be simple! pishh yeah right. i want more friends, ones that don't fuck my car if they get pissed at me for some god unknown reason..bill told me that there are some people that like me but hate me a person. the saying is true. so my saying was always fuck you, or fuck off, or just fuck it. damn i have journal entries from like years ago where i wrote was like just fuck it. so i've said it once and i'll say it again, i'm in too much drama and i'm not about all that drama, i want to live my life easier, simpler. then when do i have time to go out with friends, well i'll hang out with the kids that want to hang out with me. fuck people who are only friends with me for stupid reasons. i'm living for myself.. phone rings..
...its late and i've been told to come see a friend..
hmm..what did i say about smoking...
oh well i forgot where i was going with that

fuck it

4:20 am

2004-07-19T08:39:24Z

i have a headach behind my right eye. i'm looking up lyrics to a couple songs...i got home from work around 3:45, had a floor set tonight. it sucked but it was fun cus there are some funny kids working at aero.
my dad is up now, 4:30..
i slept at two people houses today
they weren't even home..
i only smoked 6 ciggerets all day
and 2 skimmpy blunts..
i wore the same outfit after taking a shower
i've only eaten two meals today,
a sandwitch, and 3 slices of pizza around 10:30
i have a 109 dollar phone bill..
and i owe my dad 200 from last month,
240 for this month..
i get paid on friday
there is still a scrach on my right forearm
and a dent in my car..
from almost 3 weeks ago..
i work every other day this week..

such responisbility
such little respect

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-07-17T20:34:00

2004-07-18T00:36:03Z

f u c k o f f ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

what a week

2004-07-14T04:36:25Z

rex is gone..

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-07-13T18:37:00

2004-07-13T22:37:36Z

i'll stop the world and melt with you

::extened text::

2004-07-13T22:24:40Z

yeah so anyways...
long story short
i have 300 out on loan to friends
no money for me
no gas
pay check friday
locked my keys in my car with a blunt in the front seat
find out the dent in my car from someone punching is going to be more aggrivating then planed on...

:*(

heres my telephone number call me

2004-07-12T19:29:29Z

way to much has been going on.
i've been in tampa most of the time.
its so great out there, i love being with so many people!! it only sux when you bring a certin someone with you that has a re-accuring problem with breaking things. i'm waiting right now for my laundry to be done so i can jet out. so in the mean time i'll say whats been up.
i was supose to stop smoking on sunday..but it started up again on thursday when i went to tampa to see kevin and shel, i made such a good arguement with shel that she is so proud of me for wanting to quit, which i do want to, its just not right time!!! so from there i had been drinking and i forgot, ever forget? it happened to me..at one point me and mandah wanted to go to the store to get foood cus we were hungry so we walk out to her car, i changed in the parking lot..idk why, i was feeling so great cus i was drunk and high and whatever! so we drove down to kevin's hoping someone else would ride with us..no..so shel and casey were going to go home and we drove them up to their car..haha..whata great idea..well...amanda and i parked in the wrong spot..the next morning the car wasn't there!! it was towed. great...amanda had NO money, but i had a paycheck waiting for me in lakeland. so we got kevin to drive us from tampa to lakeland to tampa again. idk it was such a bad day. well i gtg..clothes are done. i'll finish this later..
remember renee..i'm only on last friday..there are still more days in the weekend! if you want to read more about the weekend refer to jason's journal..JCBLUEYES

*your not the only one but your the best bradley
*boo boo

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-06-19T02:11:00

2004-06-19T06:13:25Z

mmms so i've had very interesting happenings this month.
my birthday week was great...thats right week...i spent a lil over a week celebrating me turning 18
i went out to tampa with kenny and we went with my sister and her room mates to PRANA!!
pretty cool
smooked alot...
alot..
got drunk a couple of times.
one of witch i went to a party andtried a keg stand..very very hard when your drunk as fuck
then this week i've spent wtih alot people
smoked...
alot..
last night kenny was arrested for driving on a supended licence..
but thats okay cus i'm mkaing him feel beter
his dad got him out of jail in bartow then took him to work
i got up around 11 and listen to the message kenny left me
explaining the misshap
we drove from one side of town to the other and back again.
tring tofind his car and it get it fromthe towing place
shit hole in auburndale
then we picked up a movie and went to my house to chill and kenny fell asleep cus he didnt get much in jail...
now i'm at jj andi have work tomorrow andi really don't want to!!!!!!!!!

rocky mountains

2004-06-06T21:16:15Z

get off my back dad. you think i'm just trying to blow off my responsibilites..NO i'm trying to get out of my house long enough to forget them. i don't want the fucking dog, if you had to leave and me take care of him i wouldn't, i would take him to the spca cus thats where we got him. all he does is bark and cry. what a fucking baby. who wants a yellow lab. he sheds smells cry bark at everything but dad is no good as a gaurd dog cus house has been egged 3 times toilet papered about 5 times and now my car got egged. w h a t t h e f u c k d o w e h a v e a d o g f o r ! !

cherrybombsquad @ 2004-05-31T21:45:00

2004-06-01T01:45:38Z

wtf

what i've accomplished

2004-05-17T21:19:12Z

today..

clean room
clean living room
clean front room
do laundry
clean half of bathroom
call natalie
shave

ah! so smooth